When I think of the phrase May Day, I do not solely think of the times when my Mom and I enjoyed such happy times together. I also think of the times in my life when I was venturing through a dark storm. There have been times when I felt I would drown in a sea of sorrow, due to the torrential rain pouring down upon me. You could liken my distress to the captain of a ship who has suffered a breach to the hull of their ship, striving to remain focused on getting the lifeboats launched and other emergency operations under way. Other times, I felt like a pilot who is flying in the darkest of night, with zero visibility, unable to control the plane due to the wind, rain, and hail falling down from the heavens above. Certainly, in a dire circumstance such as this, the pilot would immediately call out, without hesitation, “Mayday! Mayday! Mayday!”
While the distress signal “Mayday” is primarily used by mariners and aviators, the term would be quite appropriate for any sort of emergency. The term Mayday comes from the French venez m'aider, meaning “come help me” (Dictionary.com). Even though we do not have a radio on which to call for help, there is never a time that we cannot call on the name of Jesus Christ to help us. God’s Word says, “The Lord is my helper; I will not fear” (Hebrews 13:6 ESV). If you find yourself drowning in despair, call out to Him. If you are struggling to find a reason to get out of bed in the morning, ask Him to give you strength and purpose. If you feel like you are in a sinking ship, or if you feel that you are flying in a plane that is about to collide into the mountains ahead of you, call out to Jesus, saying, “Mayday! Mayday! Mayday!” Jesus Christ will answer your request, and come to help you.
Personally, I feel a little like calling out, “Mayday,” myself right now. One week from today, I will be delivering the special music on Mother’s Day. Not only that, but I am singing one of my Mom’s favorite songs that I have written. My heart strings are being pulled in every direction. My mind is worried. Will I be able to sing on key? Will I cry in front of everyone? Will I forget the words, due to my distress? I have been calling on the name of Jesus to help me. When I am talking to our Heavenly Father, it seems like a hand rests upon my shoulder. I feel a sudden calm. It’s as if Jesus is saying to me, “I heard your distress call, my child. I’m here to help you. I know it will be difficult for you, but you can do it. I know you can. And I will be standing right beside you, holding your hand, guiding you all along the way.”
Jesus Christ does not desire for any of His children to experience fear, hopelessness, or despair. He does not want us to feel as though we are being drawn into a dark tunnel from which we will never escape. He wants us to see the light. Not just the light at the end of the tunnel, but the Light. Jesus said, "I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life” (John 8:12 ESV). Jesus is the Light of the entire world. He can take away the darkness that surrounds you. He can make the sun shine again. With Jesus on your side, the shipwrecks and plane crashes of life will seem less treacherous. The hurdles you are required to jump over will seem less strenuous. And when you feel the walls are closing in around you, He will be there to help you. Call on the precious name of Jesus. He will take your miserable Mayday nightmare and turn it into a beautiful May Day dream.
In Christ’s Love,
Jennifer
When I was a teenager, I wrote a song titled, “There’s Sunshine Awaiting You.” The moment I finished writing the song, I knew that God himself had given me the lyrics. Why? Because the song had a message that transcended the limits of my understanding at this period of my life. You see, the first verse talks about a mother who has lost her child. While I have known people who have gone through this same trial, I have not personally experienced this sort of tragic loss firsthand. Still, God knew that my Mom was the one who needed to hear the lyrics to this song at this exact moment in her life. She was the first one who heard the song, and the first one who cried as she listened. I immediately knew that God had a hand in this one. Little did I know then that this song would one day hold a more significant meaning to me personally. More than a decade later, I would find myself stuck in the sunset.
When I was a little girl, my two little brothers were born prematurely and passed away as infants. I am almost certain that this is why the first verse of my song touched my Mom’s heart in such a special way. As I sang the song repeatedly over the years, and even recorded it on my very first cassette, I was so humbled to see that it was ministering to people on so many levels. I enjoyed singing it, I thought the soundtrack was beautiful, and I knew the lyrics were anointed. Still, I could not personally identify with the lyrics of the song, having never been through such a dark time in my life. I had always been the one to smile, no matter what. I could always see a glimpse of sunshine, even behind the darkest storm cloud. Truth be told, I had not yet seen the darkest storm cloud at this time in my life.
I had witnessed the death of more close friends and loved ones than most people I knew had even been to funerals. Brothers, grandfathers, a grandmother, aunts, uncles, and other friends and relatives…so many loved ones going on to be with the Lord. But, even in the midst of the loss we experienced, my Mom, Dad, and I remained a close-knit Christian family. No matter what happened around us, we knew that the three of us would love and support each other through sunshine and rain. We were like the Three Musketeers. And I had faith that God would always keep us together, no matter what storms brewed overhead. On August 2, 2008, the darkest storm of my life came upon me as suddenly as a tornado can flatten an entire town. There was no warning, there were no goodbyes, and there was nothing my Dad or I could do to silence the violent storm.
Since that tragic night, God has spoken to my heart on several occasions. I still don’t have all of the answers. I don’t understand why my Mom is not nearby, waiting to read the next entry of my blog, a blog she never had the opportunity to read. And cannot tell you why my Dad and I are not living in this house as a family of five, my Mom and younger brothers still with us. What I do know is that God has a perfect plan for our lives. He walks with me in the sunshine and in the sunset. He holds my hand, whether I am climbing mountains, traversing a rocky terrain, or wading through a raging river. Psalm 23:4 (NIV) says, “Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.” I will not be afraid of what tomorrow may bring because I know that God will comfort me in all of my tomorrows. He gives me His perfect peace and He shines forth His light, even though the sun has set. And I know He will continue to bring forth the vibrant sunshine in my life once again, in His timing.
A couple of weeks ago, I was asked to sing at my home church on Mother’s Day. For many singers, I am sure this would not be a problem. For me, it is another story. The moment I was asked, a red flag shot up. I thought, no…no, I can’t do that. I can happily sing any other Sunday, but not that one. I think the pastor must have seen the look in my eyes similar to a deer caught in the headlights, and he quickly asked if it would be too difficult for me. I’ll be honest with you. My first response would have been, yes, it would be virtually impossible for me to sing on Mother’s Day. And I am sure the pastor would have accepted this, and asked me to sing at another time. Yet, something tugged at my heart and immediately, I knew that this was something I must do.
As I told the pastor that I would sing, I pondered the song that I would share on this day on which we honor our mothers. So, I thought about what I would sing if my Mom could be in the congregation on this special occasion. And of course, the answer was simple. I would sing, “There’s Sunshine Awaiting You.” Now, I had not sung this song since my Mom’s funeral. So, I quickly began seeking God for a different answer other than the one I knew He had given. I mean, I couldn’t sing on Mother’s Day, much less sing this song. Have you ever had one of those moments when you thought, what is God thinking? Well, this was one of those moments for me. Since I was asked to sing, I have run through the song twice. The first time I ran through the song, I heard the lyrics in a new light. My song was ministering to me. I realized that I had been stuck in the sunset. And that is why I need to sing this song. Sure, when I stand up on the platform on that particular Sunday, I will likely blubber as I introduce the song and I am sure pitch will have a new meaning when I reach the song’s end. But, sometimes serving the Lord isn’t about eloquent speech or perfect pitch. Sometimes it’s simply about answer His call, no matter how difficult it seems.
Even when we’re stuck in the sunset, we have the assurance that there is sunshine awaiting us. Although it may seem unbearable at times, we need to be faithful to the One who created us. He will bring us to a place of rest, away from the storms of life that overwhelm us. The lyrics of my song speak about seeing a sunset that seems forever, and how difficult it is to face grief and pain. This sunset that you find yourself in may seem long-lasting, but it is not forever. When you reach the lowest, darkest valley, God will bring you to your knees. When you cannot go on one more mile, God will carry you through each and every storm. If you find yourself stuck in the sunset, rest assured that there’s sunshine awaiting you.
In Christ’s Love,
Jennifer
Dreamhost
While the distress signal “Mayday” is primarily used by mariners and aviators, the term would be quite appropriate for any sort of emergency. The term Mayday comes from the French venez m'aider, meaning “come help me” (Dictionary.com). Even though we do not have a radio on which to call for help, there is never a time that we cannot call on the name of Jesus Christ to help us. God’s Word says, “The Lord is my helper; I will not fear” (Hebrews 13:6 ESV). If you find yourself drowning in despair, call out to Him. If you are struggling to find a reason to get out of bed in the morning, ask Him to give you strength and purpose. If you feel like you are in a sinking ship, or if you feel that you are flying in a plane that is about to collide into the mountains ahead of you, call out to Jesus, saying, “Mayday! Mayday! Mayday!” Jesus Christ will answer your request, and come to help you.
